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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

 

One door closes, another door opens

We put Katie down yesterday.

It was an awful decision to have to make, especially since the time between Thursday's "Gee, you don't look so good" and the following Tuesday's goodbye forever was shockingly short.

There's something merciful about a swift ending, though. I've propped up an animal's life long past the point where either of us was very happy about it, and ultimately I think the people who told me, "The treatments are costly, but in the end it's the animal who pays" are probably right. In the face of an agressive, fatal cancer, at least, I think we did the right thing.

I mean, I have to think that or the guilt is unbearable.

Before we got to that point, however, on Saturday, I contacted our breeder in Anaheim and told him what was going on.

He said, "Here, take this."



Her name is Cookie.

She and Katie have the same mom.

They wagged their tails at each other and played in the grass. Katie taught her how to pee outside, and for that I'm forever in her debt.



It's a strange combination of feelings, to be carrying so much grief for Katie and to be so happy to have this new little beast romping around the house.

I don't know what else to say.

174 Comments:

Blogger Bertha said...

Oh no! I am so sorry for you, Jackson, and Jack. You absolutely did the right thing but I know that knowledge doesn't necessarily make it any easier...we will all miss Katie.

August 30, 2006 10:40 AM  
Blogger Em said...

I am sorry too. Other than that, there doesn't seem to be much to say but I too think you did the right thing (whatever the hell that is worth!).

And I am glad you have Cookie. It is so hard to have that empty space be completely empty after a pet dies.

XOXOXO. Big love.

August 30, 2006 10:42 AM  
Blogger Siobhan said...

Oh, that last pic. I just sent a huge hug/snuggle/smooch to Cookie, Jackson and most of all Katie.

August 30, 2006 10:42 AM  
Blogger jess said...

Oh. I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. I'm really sorry eden.

August 30, 2006 10:44 AM  
Blogger mommy said...

I'm so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.

I'm so sorry.

August 30, 2006 10:45 AM  
Blogger Fate said...

That's so tragic. I'm so sorry you all had to go through that. Big hugs, you did the right thing for Katie.

August 30, 2006 10:46 AM  
Blogger Cathy said...

I'm so sorry.

August 30, 2006 10:47 AM  
Blogger ducklet said...

i've sent a note to my irish setter, trixie and my border collie, max. katie will have some friendly faces waiting for her when she reaches her destination.

August 30, 2006 10:47 AM  
Blogger LFriedman said...

Oh G_d that sucks!
I agree sometimes putting the animal down is the most humane thing to do, never the easy thing.
My sympathies to your entire family and especially the wee child.

Cookie is a doll.

August 30, 2006 10:47 AM  
Blogger mothergoosemouse said...

Oh, I am so sorry.

I remember when my parents called to tell me our dog was sick. Two days later they had to put her down. Sixty to zero in two days; way too fast.

I hope Cookie helps ease the pain of losing Katie. She's darling, and so was Katie.

August 30, 2006 10:49 AM  
Blogger SparklieSunShine said...

I am really sorry to hear about this. I have been reading your site for a long time and I have always loved hearing about Katie. She was such a lovely adorable dog who pulled off boxers like no ones business. I am glad she was lucky enough to have a parent like you.

I'm also glad she was able to teach Cookie how to go outside. That is, in my opinion, the most important dog lesson. I hope things go alright with you and your family during this.

August 30, 2006 10:51 AM  
Blogger katefolsom said...

Dogs are such loving creatures. I'm sure Katie was grateful not to have to suffer anymore. And now you have Cookie, who isn't a replacement, but she'll help you move on.

I've always said, I hope someone gives me a shot of that stuff when it's my time to go.

August 30, 2006 10:51 AM  
Blogger Amy at Fannfare said...

I put my cocker spaniel, Stella, down on September 12, 2001. Bad week for all, eh? About a week before that (Stella was in renal failure so we knew we had to do it), we got Moose, the Boston terrier. Our first photos of him look a lot like your grassy shot of Cookie. It helped us to have him, and I believe it helped Stella to KNOW we had him.

Katie is happier because of your courage. I wish for your healing.

Fondly, Amy

August 30, 2006 10:52 AM  
Blogger Joyous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

A couple weeks after my dog died I got a cat. It's strange to be so sad and miss your doggie so much and to start to love a new animal.

And nothing anyone can say helps. But, I do send out my warmest thoughts for you and your family while you grieve the loss of such a wonderful friend and companian.

August 30, 2006 10:53 AM  
Blogger miserablebliss said...

I'm so sorry. Saying goodbye is never easy - and knowing you had to sayit so soon is just heartbreaking to hear. Take care of each other.

August 30, 2006 10:53 AM  
Blogger Molly said...

My husband and I are struggling with a similar decision right now; it feels like deciding the fate of a family member.

I'm very sorry to hear about Katie, but congratulations on your new addition. Cookie is adorable.

August 30, 2006 10:53 AM  
Blogger MontanaJen said...

owie.

this made my heart hurt.

i really really hope that i never have to walk in your shoes. i would be an utter mess.

cookie is edible.

August 30, 2006 10:57 AM  
Blogger velocibadgergirl said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Katie. I'm glad, though, that Cookie is there to help ease the sadness. **HUGS**

August 30, 2006 10:58 AM  
Blogger MJ said...

How special that Katie was able to meet Cookie & pass the torch...She will forever be Katie's little Cookie. Don't know what else to say except that time heals all things. My condolences to you all...

August 30, 2006 11:01 AM  
Blogger posthipchick said...

I'm so sorry about Katie.

But damn if Cookie isn't cute.

August 30, 2006 11:02 AM  
Blogger Greg said...

I had to put down a pet cat once, who also had cancer, and who had survived one surgery only to get a recurrence. I ain't comparing; I'm just saying, I know a bit of how it feels and I'm really sorry. (And glad for the new addition.)

August 30, 2006 11:09 AM  
Blogger Ariel said...

Farewell to Katie, and welcome to her little half-sibling Cookie. Here's hoping a Cookie is just the remedy for a sad family.

PS: Despite the temptation, do NOT go visit any animated rainbow bridge websites for the next three weeks. They will make you sob and you'll be sort of embarrassed for yourself.

RIP Katie.

August 30, 2006 11:10 AM  
Blogger Busy Mom said...

I am so sorry for your loss, I enjoyed reading about Katie.

Cookie is a sweetie, I wish you all many years of happiness with her.

August 30, 2006 11:17 AM  
Blogger Karen Rani said...

I'm so sorry Mrs. K. So very sorry.

Cookie couldn't have picked a better family. Big hugs to you and your wonderful family.

Karen
xo

August 30, 2006 11:22 AM  
Blogger Sarcomical said...

oh, i'm so sorry. people don't know how hard it can be to let an animal go.

but cookie looks sweet, and i hope she helps fill the void a little and reminds you every day that you don't need to feel guilty.

August 30, 2006 11:23 AM  
Blogger castle9 said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You don't need any of us to tell you you made the right decision, but I'm telling you anyway...you're a courageous family.

And welcome, Cookie. You're cute!

August 30, 2006 11:25 AM  
Blogger castle9 said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You don't need any of us to tell you you made the right decision, but I'm telling you anyway...you're a courageous family.

And welcome, Cookie. You're cute!

August 30, 2006 11:25 AM  
Blogger blackbird said...

Gosh Mrs. Kennedy.
I always think I have to say something funny or intelligent or snarky here -
and today all I can think of is
gee
I'm
so
sorry.

August 30, 2006 11:26 AM  
Blogger bandick said...

I usually bitch about the location of my cube and how far it seems from civilization until I read a post like this and actually find myself weeping.

We put down the family dog, at 16, in December. I was miserable until March when I got an amazing pup from the Humane Society.

Katie and Cookie are very lucky to spend time, no matter how long or short, with a family that loves them!

August 30, 2006 11:27 AM  
Blogger fayrene said...

I know that we sign up for these sorts of decisions when we bring a pet home, but that doesn't make them simple.

I feel like you did the right thing - to me it is part of the understanding we have with our dogs: they love us unconditionally, and we take care of them and make their lives easy. I think that means making their death easy, too. At least for them, if not for us.

August 30, 2006 11:32 AM  
Blogger Brooke said...

Oh no. I'm so sorry. Katie sounded lovely.

You did the right thing in sparing her pain. It sounds like she had a good death.

August 30, 2006 11:32 AM  
Blogger Liz said...

Oof, this is so hard. No one can ever really be prepared to lose a pet. Best wishes to your family.

August 30, 2006 11:33 AM  
Blogger Suzyns said...

I'm so sorry, Mrs. K. Katie was a gem--thank you for sharing her with us. Hoping all is feeling okay with the Kennedy household--that's a tough thing to go through for everyone. Peace on you all.

August 30, 2006 11:39 AM  
Blogger noelle said...

Rest in peace sweet Katie. Welcome to the family, cute Cookie.

August 30, 2006 11:40 AM  
Blogger mathew said...

i'm so sorry, relieved and happy for you, all at once.

maybe a crass question, but how did your breeder react to all of this? katie has had more than her fair share of problems in her short life. i guess the real question is: free puppy?

August 30, 2006 11:48 AM  
Blogger emily said...

So very, very sorry about Katie.

So very, very happy about Cookie.

I hope there is absolutely no pet drama anywhere in your future!

August 30, 2006 11:56 AM  
Blogger mrs.jack said...

My thoughts are with you all. While I never met Katie, her smile and your pictures of her brightened my day.

I wish you and the whole family peace.

August 30, 2006 11:57 AM  
Blogger Krisco said...

I'm sorry for your loss. Pets are always a member of the family. I hope Katie knew the new puppy would help ease your transition.

Congratulations on the new puppy.

August 30, 2006 11:58 AM  
Blogger LadyBug said...

I'm sad for your loss and happy for your new addition. I hope Jackson is taking everything well. Love and hugs to your family.

August 30, 2006 12:02 PM  
Blogger meno said...

You did make the right decision, as it was done from love.
I'm very sorry.

August 30, 2006 12:20 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Ca said...

I'm so sorry about Katie. It does seem that you did the right thing. It wouldn't have been fair to Katie to go through all that pain. I love that last picture of the two of them with Jackson - very bittersweet.

August 30, 2006 12:25 PM  
Blogger Jonniker said...

Of course you did the right thing. I'm so sorry, and much love to you.

And Cookie is just plain adorable. That face!

August 30, 2006 12:26 PM  
Blogger jkdasfjad said...

My dearest Mrs. Kennedy. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, but happy your family will not fall short. Much love to you all.

August 30, 2006 12:30 PM  
Blogger Beachgal said...

Big time lurker here bawling her eyes out for your loss. I am sorry and wish I had the right words.

August 30, 2006 12:32 PM  
Blogger Elaine said...

Beautiful pictures, both of them. I hope Katie is romping in heaven with the best of them, including my Georgie (nearly one year deceased). Congratulations on the new pup. I think there's an old saying, or proverb or something: "Puppies mend broken hearts." Peace to you all.

August 30, 2006 12:34 PM  
Blogger styro said...

Ach, the heartbreak, it is too much. Give everyone a kiss for me, and get one back from Cookie. I feel your pain intensely. It is hard to say goodbye to our furry buddies.

August 30, 2006 12:43 PM  
Blogger Antonia said...

I will miss Katie too, although I only ever knew her through your stories and pictures: she was a gorgeous dog. I hope you, Jackson and Jack are as okay as you can be.

For me, missing dead pets eventually gives way to smiling when I think about happy memories of them, and I hope that happens for you too.

Lots and lots of love to you, and a great big welcome to Cookie - she has no idea what a great family she's just come into.

August 30, 2006 12:48 PM  
Blogger mamadaisy said...

oh, i'm so sorry to hear that. you did the kindest thing you could for katie. poor jackson, between the old and the new.

August 30, 2006 12:55 PM  
Blogger Josephine said...

Sending thoughts of consolation...I'm very sorry for your loss.

August 30, 2006 12:59 PM  
Blogger Jesse said...

Katie will be surely missed.....your blogs or so insightful

August 30, 2006 1:01 PM  
Blogger Shelly Kang said...

So sorry for your loss. A pet is a family member, and saying goodbye is so hard.

August 30, 2006 1:02 PM  
Blogger Tracy said...

Eden, I'm so sorry. I know your heart must be broken, but you so, SO did the right thing for Katie.

Two weeks ago we had our beloved 10 year old dog Indy euthanized - she'd had diabetes for over a year and was heading steadily downhill. We have no kids, so she was like a kid to us. We didn't see the point of keeping her lingering till she was pissing herself and unable to walk. Making the decision to let them go BEFORE they're at the absolute end is wrenchingly hard - but I think it's also the kindest and most unselfish thing you can do. I feel your heartache because I'm there too... But you did right by your girl.

Best wishes for a LONG and happy life with little sister Cookie!

August 30, 2006 1:07 PM  
Blogger The Minkz said...

I am terribly sorry for your loss. Cancer sucks ass and Katie did not deserve to suffer. You did the right thing and I pray I'm strong enough to make the same choice should I ever need to. Cookie has some big boxers to fill!

August 30, 2006 1:32 PM  
Blogger the patriarch said...

Christ, that is sad, but in a kind of life-affirming way. I don't know that I've ever heard of a family getting a puppy right before putting down their other pet. It seems like a really good idea, though. And shit, that little puppy is awfully cute. I'd say you handled this about as well as is humanly possible.

August 30, 2006 1:33 PM  
Blogger B.E.C.K. said...

I'm so touched by this somehow, these life transitions. These decisions are never easy, and I think you acted with a huge amount of compassion. Please accept my condolences on Katie's passing, and my congratulations on Cookie's arrival. May Cookie bring you much happiness at this strange and difficult time.

August 30, 2006 1:44 PM  
Blogger Meepers said...

Ahhhh.... I'm (as everyone) so very sorry, Mrs. K/Jack and Jackson. You definitely made the right decision - one of the hardest ones, but the right one.

Cookie ... is a little morsel. Hopefully her sweetness will help assuage some of your collective sorrow.

A small confession about Katie: I actually had an small fear that I'd someday run into the bunch of you cruising around Farmers Market or something and blurt out, "Oh HIIIIII Katieee! You're even more cute in person," etc... leaving the human members of your family shaking their heads at you and backing away, slowly. You know, the ultimate awkward "blog-by sighting".

Any rate, I'm glad your breeder did the right thing by you - He sounds like a person who loves and cares for dogs and people.

August 30, 2006 1:57 PM  
Blogger Meg said...

Such a tough choice. But you made the right one, I think. Cookie is beautiful and will be happy with you, and Katie only had great experiences with you. That's a lot to be proud of.

August 30, 2006 1:58 PM  
Blogger kann said...

I am so sorry. That is so hard and it hurts sososo much and I am sorry.
The last picture got me crying.
xo to all of you and to Katie.

August 30, 2006 1:59 PM  
Blogger Chair said...

I'm so sorry.

August 30, 2006 2:05 PM  
Blogger Wicked H said...

No words really. I went through this recently myslef and it takes time to heal. I know you all did the right thing and Katie will rest in peace. Cookie is a sweetie.

Just let it take as much time as each one of you needs.

Hugs to the Kennedy family!

August 30, 2006 2:07 PM  
Blogger Polichick said...

I'm so sorry that you lost Katie.

I'm very happy for you that you have such a lovely reminder of how great Katie was.

August 30, 2006 2:16 PM  
Blogger schmutzie said...

Beautiful. And now I'm crying in my cubicle. Thankfully, I have allergies, and no one here will be none the wiser.

August 30, 2006 2:33 PM  
Blogger Meetzorp said...

My little dog died suddenly of liver cancer many years ago. It was a very similar thing...one day she seemed unwell. The next day we got the diagnosis. The day after that, she was gone. Sometimes I think it's actually worse when it is so sudden, when you don't have half a chance to steel yourself for it.

I'm glad Katie's little sister has coem to help keep you all company. I wish her a long, healthy, happy life with all of you. She's darling.

August 30, 2006 2:44 PM  
Blogger paper napkin said...

I feel so sad about the whole thing. Saddest for Jackson, although death and grief is a lot more simple for a kid-- no baggage around it or attatchment to what "death" means. I'm sorry you lost her.


Hi Cookie.

August 30, 2006 2:55 PM  
Blogger Melissa said...

It was the right decision but a really hard one. I'm sorry it was there to make.

August 30, 2006 2:58 PM  
Blogger Grace said...

When we lost Chancey (over a year ago now, hard to believe as that is), I lobbied hard to get another dog right away. And I was right, and so were you. It's incredibly awful to lose your beloved dog, and in my experience, the next dog is the only thing that makes it better. Not replacement--symmetry. Which your picture of the two dogs and Jackson shoes pretty damned clearly.

We'll be thinking about your family and donating to a rescue in Katie's name this month.

August 30, 2006 2:59 PM  
Blogger jenB said...

oh my goodness. that was very fast. poor katie and the kennedys. i am glad you have sweet cookies to add some joy in the house right now. that last photo is absolutely beautiful. hugs and kisses to all the peoples and beasts.

xo

August 30, 2006 3:05 PM  
Blogger simzgirl said...

Ohhhh. My heart is breaking for you. But I am so happy that you essentially have a part of Katie to carry on in her absence.

August 30, 2006 3:26 PM  
Blogger Camille said...

I'm sorry that you had to make the decision to put her down but it was the right one. My in-laws Rottweiler was diagnosed with cancer a couple of years ago, they put him though chemo and two months later he still had to be put down. It cost them so much more money and heartache, not to mention the pain and misery the dog had to go through.

May Katie rest in peace and may Cookie help your family through the healing process.

August 30, 2006 3:34 PM  
Blogger Kizz said...

Almost everyone I know has pets, the diagnosis-treatment-decision thing is familiar to me and yet, I'm horribly surprised every single time. I opened this page and gasped. I didn't think you'd have to go so fast. I'm so very, very sorry. It's just awful. Glad you have Cookie to cuddle.

So, so, sorry.

August 30, 2006 4:33 PM  
Blogger honestyrain said...

i am surprisingly incredibly sad to hear that katie is gone. of all the internet dogs, she was my favorite. how sad. and although you completely don't need to hear it from the likes of me, you did the right thing. but it's still awful that she's gone.

but cookie? i'm going to have to eat cookie. becuase cookie is too damned cute.

goodbye adorable internet dog katie.

August 30, 2006 4:49 PM  
Blogger Melissa said...

Oh my god! I haven't checked in with you for a while, and then today, well.....

I am so, so sorry, Mrs. K. I don't even know you guys and my heart is breaking for you. She sounded like a wonderful dog.

Take care. Have fun with Cookie. She's super adorable.

August 30, 2006 5:34 PM  
Blogger Bill said...

Well, hell. I am so sorry. The pain will eventually pass, leaving only the love.

August 30, 2006 5:57 PM  
Blogger Ruth said...

I'm so terribly sorry. I've loved reading about Katie .... she was a great dog.

August 30, 2006 6:04 PM  
Blogger Lee said...

I'm sorry for y'all's loss...that's never an easy choice to make...welcome to the newest little one

August 30, 2006 6:14 PM  
Blogger DDM said...

Oh NO! Mrs. K, I am so sorry for your loss. That is such a difficult decision to make, and in my opinion you did the right thing. I've been there. In fact, I just had a little chat with my Kota, and Katie will be in excellent company. ;-) Again, I am so sorry.

Cookie is edible, clearly. I hope that loving her helps all of you to heal from the loss of dear Katie.

August 30, 2006 6:15 PM  
Blogger bernalgirl said...

I am so very, very sorry.

August 30, 2006 6:42 PM  
Blogger Karen said...

Godspeed, Katie. Godspeed.

There's so much to be said in the photo of a boy and his two dogs - he will always remember, and learn that love is endless, regardless of endings.

August 30, 2006 6:43 PM  
Blogger cognitive dissonance said...

oh, you make me cry. I'm glad you have some semblance of balance. What a good girl Katie was, and how wonderful she was able to meet your new member and maybe haze her a bit.

August 30, 2006 6:48 PM  
Blogger Ellamama said...

I'm so sorry for your loss but applaud the life affirming way that your family took on this crisis.

August 30, 2006 7:04 PM  
Blogger Sarah Marie said...

Enjoy your Cookie, and know that you'll always remember Katie.

All the best!

August 30, 2006 7:05 PM  
Blogger Robin said...

So, so sorry to hear about Katie. Tough decision but I'm sure it was the right thing.

Cookie looks like a winner. Have fun.

August 30, 2006 7:14 PM  
Blogger veg4me said...

I'm really sorry.

I hope Jackson is holding up okay.

August 30, 2006 7:14 PM  
Blogger LadySeduction said...

This is the saddest and sweetest thing I have ever read, Mrs. K.
So much love and light to you all.

August 30, 2006 7:27 PM  
Blogger Mom101 said...

RIP Katie. See you on the other side.

Welcome Cookie. You're in excellent, loving hands.

August 30, 2006 7:29 PM  
Blogger banjeroo said...

Oh that's awful. Such a brutal thing to go through. Pet owners love our little beasts, know them so well, let them become family, and then bear this terrible responsibility to make difficult decisions when they become unwell. I am sure you did the right thing.

It's a good thing humans are complicated and can hold grief and delight in our hearts at once.

Condolences to the family (and a warm welcome to Cookie, who looks just lovely).

August 30, 2006 7:30 PM  
Blogger Her Grace said...

My parents recently went through almost the exact same situation. Listless on Wednesday, vet on Thursday, gone on Friday. They were devastated and still have a hard time talking about him. I still look for him to greet me when I visit and am constantly saving my last bite of food for him.

I'm sorry for you loss. These pets find their way into our hearts, don't they?

August 30, 2006 7:35 PM  
Blogger Paige Filartiga said...

Cookie is beautiful. She reminds me of the female we had, her black "eyeliner" is so pretty. I know the pain of a bulldog lost to cancer and I am so sorry you are having to go through that. I am kind of giggling though.. thinking you must really love the breed to go thru the bulldog puppy stage twice. I would do it 100 more times myself, what little imps they are. I miss the facial expressions and the sleeping with the tongue out. Once a bulldog owner, you are forever bewitched by their charms. A big hug, Paige

August 30, 2006 8:07 PM  
Blogger sari said...

I cry.

I have a pug, Porter, up there. He's a good guy. I'll put a word in for him to show Katie around.

I'm glad you all have Cookie. I hope she helps ease the loss of Katie for you.

August 30, 2006 8:16 PM  
Blogger < said...

I am sorry for your loss. Even when you know it's the right thing to do, it's awfully hard to do it.

Best of luck with your new pup.

August 30, 2006 8:19 PM  
Blogger Kim said...

You did right by Katie. Always remember that, along with all the wonderful times when she was happy and not in pain.

We know when pets come into our lives that we will probably outlive them. Doesn't make it any easier to lose them.

Enjoy every day with Cookie.

August 30, 2006 8:28 PM  
Blogger brinki dink said...

I'm so sorry about Katie. She was such a beautiful puppy. You did the right thing for her, the selfless thing, the hardest thing.

You new little cookie looks adorable, she won't replace Katie but hopefully she'll help ease you all through this transition.

August 30, 2006 8:47 PM  
Blogger Meghan said...

Oh, sweet Katie. Rest in peace dear girl. I know your decision was heartbreaking, I've had to make it myself on several occasions. Thank you for giving her that final gift of peace.

August 30, 2006 9:01 PM  
Blogger Victoria said...

I'm so so sorry.

I hope Cookie brings you all some joy.

Sending you all love and hugs.

August 30, 2006 9:06 PM  
Blogger Abigail said...

I am so sorry to hear about Katie's passing. I hope the new little doggie warms your heart and help's Jackson's repair itself!

August 30, 2006 9:07 PM  
Blogger SUEB0B said...

That first sentence just knocked the wind out of me. It is so, so hard. I wish you all the best.

Cookie is such a cutie.

August 30, 2006 9:16 PM  
Blogger Elizabeth said...

I'm so sorry, I enjoyed your stories about Katie.

But awww, how cute is Cookie? Just the name makes me want to snuggle and smooch her! I hope you are all dealing with the transition well.

August 30, 2006 9:19 PM  
Blogger urban-urchin said...

What a lovely memory for your family to see the adorable Cookie and Katie together.

I am so sorry for your loss.

August 30, 2006 9:39 PM  
Blogger Natalie said...

I am so sorry.

And you are so right about the price being far too great for the animal who suffers through a fatal illness/disease. I worked at a vets office for sometime as an assistant and some of the heroic measures requested by the loving pet 'owners' were just so sad. You did the right thing as sad as it may be.

Cookie is adorable, too kind of your breeder to offer her up.

August 30, 2006 11:17 PM  
Blogger ASH said...

This just breaks my heart. I went through a lot of the same emotions when we had to have our cat Salvador put to sleep suddenly earlier this month.
It does get better, but it is hard.

You did the right thing. You loved Katie and we have to make these difficult choices for them. In the end, it is kinder.

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you have Katie's sister with you, that seems right. Cookie is so adorable.

August 30, 2006 11:51 PM  
Blogger Birchsprite said...

It shows true love and care to be able to take that decision for the welfare of your dog. It is much harder to do that so they don't suffer. You made the right decision for Katie and spared her any more pain.

And at least she got to meet Cookie and pass on her love to her!

Take care all of you!

August 31, 2006 1:40 AM  
Blogger dancingmorganmouse said...

You DID do the right thing - we were faced with a similar choice, a kidney transplant for our elderly cat or ... well you know.
We were tempted, but it would have hurt her, she would not have understood why and, ultimately, it would not have given her all that much time. Don't feel guilty, feel glad that this was something you could do for someone you loved.

August 31, 2006 2:39 AM  
Blogger Anne said...

I'm sorry about Katie - having a loved pet put down is a weird mixture of emotions. I hope your family and Cookie can bring each other a lot of happiness.

August 31, 2006 2:53 AM  
Blogger cmhl said...

I'm so sorry!!

August 31, 2006 4:44 AM  
Blogger UrbanCowgirl said...

It is never easy, but you did the right thing.

Cookie is so cute. She does look like she might have a little mischief in her, though.

August 31, 2006 5:43 AM  
Blogger jennifer starfall said...

fuckadoodle-doo, that sucks. i'm very very sorry, and i agree that you did the right thing. the hardest thing.

wow. {{{hugs}}}

August 31, 2006 6:38 AM  
Blogger shannonO said...

My dog, Charmer, acquired the lovely cancer in his mouth when I was 9. We forked over a ton of money, that I now fully understand (as this was nearly 20 years ago)that my parents didn't have to spend, to have it operated on. He spent 3 mo. lying around the house miserably "recovering" - a shell of himself - only for us to find that it had not only come back but spread to his lungs and abdomen.

We put him down two days before Christmas. As painful as your decision was, you have to know it was the right one for Katie. I wish we could take back the 3 mo. of agony Charmer went through while we sat around hoping for "even a few more months with him".
I'm so sorry for you all. Good luck with your new little love.

August 31, 2006 7:23 AM  
Blogger pd said...

I'm so sorry and so happy for you.

Katie <3 and Cookie <3

August 31, 2006 7:39 AM  
Blogger Laurie said...

What a story. That is so great that they got to meet each other...I understand the mix of feelings, though, and having been in your position only one terrible time, agree with Ariel about the avoidance of said Web sites, unless you need a good, cleansing cry.

That last photo is a gift - thanks for sharing, even if I'm now useless for the next bit of time at work. Dogs and their people get me every time. Best wishes to all of you.

August 31, 2006 7:53 AM  
Blogger Amanda B. said...

I'm so sorry about Katie honey. I lost my old friend Stirling a few months ago, and it just broke me in two. I'm glad you have the new baby to hold and love though.

I LOVE that little face.

August 31, 2006 8:01 AM  
Blogger vikky said...

Eden, I am sitting here sobbing for the first time since we had to put our dog down nearly a month ago. I know there is nothing to say to make it easier; it just sucks.
How is Jackson doing?

August 31, 2006 8:15 AM  
Blogger Sue said...

happy/sad, life is so much like that, good breeder!

so sorry about Katie, no doubt she parked her heart with Cookie

August 31, 2006 8:19 AM  
Blogger seal said...

(hug) i'm so very sorry about katie. my eyes are welling up thinking about it.

August 31, 2006 8:24 AM  
Blogger Erika said...

Thinking of all of you.

August 31, 2006 8:31 AM  
Blogger Amy Jo said...

Oh, god. I'm so sorry.

August 31, 2006 8:45 AM  
Blogger Dana said...

How wonderful to have the new dog, even though she can't replace Katie, I'm sure the emotional benefits are enourmous and so helpful for all of you.

August 31, 2006 8:45 AM  
Blogger Kathy said...

Goodness, I am very sorry. I have a 14 year old lab that was diagnosed with cancer about three weeks ago. I used to say, "I don't know what I will do when that day comes." Here it is. I will take her for one last run at the river before I put her down. After that I will immediately get another pup that will hopefully be just as sweet and silly.

August 31, 2006 8:57 AM  
Blogger Velma said...

I'm so sorry, but it sounds like it was truly the right thing to do.

August 31, 2006 9:08 AM  
Blogger Molly Murphy said...

I have always loved reading your stories about Katie and can't imagine how hard this is for you...the only thing that will make me teary on command (still!) is thinking about putting our golden retriever down-and that was 10 years ago! So sorry about Katie...sending hugs your way! (And congratulations on Cookie: it's so sweet that she met Katie...)

August 31, 2006 9:21 AM  
Blogger Gretchen said...

As a fellow bulldog owner, this is probably a bit harder to see than if I had a different breed of doggie. Very sad news indeed. Cookie's adorable. What a sweet little sister.

Good girl, Katie. Good girl.

August 31, 2006 9:25 AM  
Blogger ceece said...

oh damn. How's Jackson doing? Katie was pretty damn lucky to have you guys as a family from what you wrote.

I know it's been said so much but I'm sorry.

August 31, 2006 9:56 AM  
Blogger Belinda said...

Take a deep, cleansing breath, and let out any tiny amount of doubt you might have over whether or not you did the right thing. You did.

Cookie is beautiful, truly. Here's hoping that she suffers none of the maladies that dear Katie endured in her too-short life, and that she will be loved with the same quality of love that you gave to sweet Katie.

Rest in peace, Katie. Good Girl.

August 31, 2006 10:00 AM  
Blogger Sara said...

Oh jesus. I've got a lump in my throat for you guys. How awful and wonderful.

August 31, 2006 10:01 AM  
Blogger isabel said...

my thoughts are with you.

August 31, 2006 10:29 AM  
Blogger ms. jared said...

oh dear. i'm so, so sorry to read this. my heart goes out to you and your family.

i had to have my beloved kitty of 16 years put down at the end of july and it nearly killed me. what saved me was the love of a precious new beasty mabel, who reminds me so much of my beloved old maude.

it's so hard to let them go but like you i think that it's often for the best, especially for the animal.

i think if maude could speak she would have said, "dignity, always dignity!" and so that's what i decided on in the end. it's still such a deeply painful loss though and my deepest condolences go out to you. may y'all find lots of love and joy with cookie.

xoxo, jared

August 31, 2006 10:30 AM  
Blogger Het said...

HUGS! Goodbye to your beautiful Katie, and welcome little Cookie.

As if my opinion matters, I believe you did a kind thing for Katie.

Hugs

August 31, 2006 10:36 AM  
Blogger Amanda said...

I'm so sorry, Mrs. K.

August 31, 2006 10:42 AM  
Blogger Vaguely Urban said...

So, so, sorry that you lost Katie. She was a love, it was plain to see from your writing. And she knew you loved her. (If I knew it, she knew it. Dogs are much smarter than I am.)

August 31, 2006 10:42 AM  
Blogger saraarts said...

Sorry about Katie. Good luck with Cookie.

Yeah, it is a strange transition. One person does not console us for the loss of another person, but you can't have too much love or too many people to love, so things progress and your heart grows even as it breaks.

Best wishes.

August 31, 2006 10:52 AM  
Blogger Nora said...

I am so, so sorry. My thoughts are with all of you.

Growing up, we always tried to schedule new-dog aquisition so that the older, wiser dog could train up the new pup in how to behave. This is a hard time for all of you, but I know that, as a kid, I really appreciated the continuity of having an apprentice dog around to carry on the legacy of the dog that came before.

August 31, 2006 10:53 AM  
Blogger Surrender, Dorothy said...

I am so sorry about your loss. Wow.

I signed up for a Blogger blog just so I could say that.

August 31, 2006 11:15 AM  
Blogger Bob said...

I am so, so, sorry.

That's never an easy decision to make, but it is really best when the alternative is a painfull, prolonged death. Your memories of Katie can now be ones of a happy, loved dog.

August 31, 2006 11:34 AM  
Blogger ae said...

So, so, sorry for the loss.

August 31, 2006 12:03 PM  
Blogger indigohat said...

OMG.. Cookie is so adorable. You have an amazingly supportive breeder.

I'm so sorry that you all are going through this loss. I've been through it with a cat and cancer. You are in my thoughts.

August 31, 2006 12:11 PM  
Blogger Smoky Barnable said...

My wife and I lost a cat this spring.
When I picked her up off the street 15 years earlier, she was probably not even a month old. She tried to nurse on my knuckles right up to the end.
It wrecked us to lose her.
Our thoughts are with you and your family.

August 31, 2006 1:38 PM  
Blogger devon said...

I never leave comments on your blog but as a fellow dog lover I want to express my sympathy & condolences. You did the right thing, and I hope Cookie brings you great joy.

August 31, 2006 1:56 PM  
Blogger Beth said...

Argh! I'm a relatively new reader, from SB also. I'm resisting crying in my cube, but happy that you have a new little one to keep you occupied. Hope to see you at Hendry's one day!

August 31, 2006 1:58 PM  
Blogger GraceD said...

Oh no!

I'm so sorry, Mrs. K.

Bless Katie. Bless Jackson. Bless you and the hubs. Bless Cookie.

Love,
GraceD

August 31, 2006 2:05 PM  
Blogger Neila said...

It is so difficult to lose a family member like that. But you did the right thing! Unfortunately the right thing never seems to be the easy thing.

We have lost two greyhounds in the past three years - one to bone cancer and one to a leg infection. It is crushing to let them go.

I understand what you are going through and my prayers are with your family.

Enjoy your beautiful new puppy! Cookie is adorable!

August 31, 2006 2:20 PM  
Blogger Arabella said...

I'm just so, so sorry.

August 31, 2006 2:21 PM  
Blogger Laurel 825 said...

I feel for you and yours. We put down a much-loved Pug in 6/05 and it was the hardest thing I've been through...ever.

We got a puppy within 2 weeks and she's been a blessing and we love her and make over her and talk in that stupid way to her ...and one day she'll leave us in that void. Yo, Pavlov!

Cookie is good. Wishing her a long, healthy life. :)

August 31, 2006 3:07 PM  
Blogger islaygirl said...

oh, mrs. k. so sorry. been through this, both the sick dog and the 'is it too soon to take this new thing home' and glad you have that lovely photo of katie & cookie with jackson.

August 31, 2006 3:15 PM  
Blogger Kristen said...

I know how much a part of your family life Katie was - and it has to be bittersweet and complex to welcome the new baby at this time. I hope Jackson is doing well. Thinking of all of you.

August 31, 2006 3:19 PM  
Blogger michele said...

I'm so very sorry. I had to put our bandit down a couple of months ago. May the new puppy bring joy in with the sorrow. Hugs.

August 31, 2006 3:27 PM  
Blogger Kimblahg said...

You did the right thing. You are right, she would have paid if you had tried to prolong her life of sickness and pain. I am so sorry for you and your family but congratulate you on the new baby.

August 31, 2006 3:45 PM  
Blogger Ms. K said...

I'm sorry about Katie. It's always so hard to make that decision; but you did the right and humane thing by her.

August 31, 2006 3:54 PM  
Blogger Brook said...

My heart goes out to you. I've lost two family dogs to cancer and it's just so....awful.

At the same time, congratulations on your new addition. I wish I could have a farm full of puppies.

August 31, 2006 5:48 PM  
Blogger debbie said...

oh my god, i'm bawling... i'm so so sorry, eden.

that last picture is wonderful and heartbreaking.

August 31, 2006 8:17 PM  
Blogger Ellen said...

I'm so terribly sorry for your family. I'll echo that I think you made the right decision. This speaks volumes about you; every animal should be so lucky. Glad to see that another darling will be.

August 31, 2006 9:02 PM  
Blogger Average Jane said...

To throw my comment into the almost hundreds, last November my family had to put down our family dog due to cancer. We caught it very late so the last days before we put him down were practically unbareable-- he shook, wouldn't move, was in constant pain, and couldn't control his bladder. (We were waiting for my sister to come home from college before we put him down).

It was one of those horribly sad days, but it had to be done. Trust me when I say you should not feel guilty, you did the best thing for your dog.

We're still working on my parents trying to get them to get another dog--despite the fact only one kid is still at home.

Cookie is amazingly adorable.

August 31, 2006 10:06 PM  
Blogger Dana said...

Ach, love.

So hard and so amazing a situation, and written about with such crystalline beauty. I am both sad and happy for you. In lieu of an appropriate emoticon, I offer an electronic hug of epic proportions.

Pax,
Dana R.

September 01, 2006 12:10 AM  
Blogger JenInSeattle said...

Mrs. Kennedy--I'm delurking to say that my thoughts are with you, Jack, and Jackson. May Katie RIP. I had to put down my kitty, Chester, in April, and it still hurts to think about him. May Katie and all the happy times she brought you stay with you. We, your Internet friends, share and feel your pain.

September 01, 2006 12:45 AM  
Blogger Mary said...

I'm delurking here to say I'm so sorry for you about Katie byt I'm also really happy for you about Cookie. Maybe this'll inspire me to stop being so shy. We love you.

September 01, 2006 3:57 AM  
Blogger Her Ladyship said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Katie. Cookie is darling though.

September 01, 2006 6:59 AM  
Blogger nightingaleshiraz said...

i'm sending a hug -- a big one. i can't think of anything else that could be useful. i can't think of anything else to say.

September 01, 2006 7:19 AM  
Blogger kaymaria said...

I can't scroll through all the well-wisher's comments or I'll reel back into missing Jasmine, my Great Dane that I had to put down (counting on fingers) - geez-Louise, almost 2 years ago - but she was a force to be reckoned with so OF COURSE I still miss her - but I digress, have you seen the book Dog Heaven? I bought it after I had to put Jasmine down and even though I could only read a page at a time without sobbing so hard I couldn't read at all, it still kinda helped. I liked it better than that sappy bridge email I'm sure people are sending you.

Be brave little soldier!
Kay

September 01, 2006 8:35 AM  
Blogger Karianna said...

ohgodno I was hoping it wouldn't be necessary. But it was a careful and humane decision. sniff.

Bless Katie for teaching Cookie the rules. I am sure important knowledge was trasferred there.

Is it odd that the first time I saw the second picture I didn't notice Jackson in it? I only saw the sisters bonding and saying goodbye.

Now that I see Jackson, I see the weight of the decision and the realization of the moment.

September 01, 2006 9:09 AM  
Blogger Liz said...

I'm sorry for your loss. We had a wonderful golden retriever who got cancer at 3. They removed the tumor on her leg but it came back about a year later. We put the dog through radiation because the doctors said that it's usually successful. Two weeks after she finished radiation, we had to put her down. I will never go that route again. Ever. The person who said the dog is the one that pays is absolutely correct. So, don't let the guilt in with the grief. You did the right think, no matter how much it hurts.

September 01, 2006 11:13 AM  
Blogger Barbara said...

Oh, I am so sorry you lost your sweet Katie. She'll be missed in cyber-space, too, although she'll get to live forever here.

September 01, 2006 11:15 AM  
Blogger clipper829 said...

I'm so sorry for you and for Katie. I had to put down my 16 year old shih-tzu and have never really gotten over it, though it was the absolute best thing for her.

I still don't have another dog. Looking at your little Cookie moves me in that direction.

September 01, 2006 11:35 AM  
Blogger Andria said...

Many Hugs for you and the fam for the loss of a great and wonderful Katie.
Much squeeing of the cuteness of a Cookie.

I already have two dogs, a black lab and a black lab/pit bull mix. Now I want a bulldog. Luckily for my husband our new house is too small for yet another pet (we have 4).

September 01, 2006 1:49 PM  
Blogger rhonda said...

I am so sorry for your families loss.

Welcome to the Kennedy family Cookie, I look forward to watching you grow up.

September 01, 2006 2:30 PM  
Blogger feather said...

Lord, that's fucking awful. My deepest sorrow for you and Katie. We had to put a dog down eight years ago after she was hit by a car and it was horrendous.

I hope that little Cookie helps you and especially Jackson through the grieving.

September 01, 2006 10:00 PM  
Blogger Jenny said...

I've come back several times, and I still don't know what to say. I'm sorry for your loss, and glad that little Cookie has joined your family.

September 01, 2006 10:09 PM  
Blogger ProudMary said...

My god, what a full and turbulent life little Katie had. I'm glad she was so loved through it all and that it ended simply.

I'd love to hear how you dealt with this regarding Jackson. Two of our dogs will likely be moving on in a few years, and I'm not sure how to reassure without going full-on "All Dogs Go to Heaven."

September 02, 2006 9:28 AM  
Blogger JustGinnyJ said...

I'm so, so sorry. I just sobbed my way through Katie's entire Flickr set. What a beautiful girl she was. I know it was a hard decision, but you did the kindest thing for her. I'm glad Katie got to meet Cookie so she would know her family would be well loved.

September 02, 2006 3:05 PM  
Blogger Rachel said...

I'm so sorry. And I know Cookie won't replace Katie, but I hope she helps you and Jackson with your grief.

My older dog suddenly stopped eating and is acting "off". I'm crying at what happened with Katie and hoping we don't have to make these decisions ourselves.

Take care of yourselves.

rachel
A Gaggle of Girls

September 03, 2006 7:01 AM  
Blogger karla said...

That Cookie looks so sweet and yummy. I'm sorry about Katie. I know how hard that must be.

September 03, 2006 1:20 PM  
Blogger JaG said...

Sorry for your loss.

September 03, 2006 1:27 PM  
Blogger divinemissk said...

i'm sorry for your loss, and will miss Katie.
Cookie looks like a doll and i'm glad she will be there to help you all through this.

September 04, 2006 8:49 AM  
Blogger and rudeness said...

It is so hard to lose a "family member."

My heart is with you...

September 04, 2006 6:15 PM  
Blogger james scoolis said...

Mrs K-

Wow-- i am so sorry for your troubles--my best to you, jack and jackson-- wow. And i am so glad to know that the breeder guy is such a good person. love and happiness

September 05, 2006 9:49 PM  
Blogger Erin said...

Oh, how heartbreaking that last picture is! I'm sure you did the right thing, and that Katie is not in pain. Cookie is beautiful, and I think that it is wonderful that she got to meet Katie and learn a bit from her.

September 06, 2006 3:25 PM  
Blogger African Kelli said...

Holey moley. I am so sorry Mrs. Kennedy. What a rough couple of weeks is must have been. I hope you are starting to feel better. You were/are such a good doggie parent. May all animals be so blessed.

September 11, 2006 2:24 PM  

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