Faking It

I am no longer faking an interest in Shakespeare. Jack has been wanting to watch some version of Hamlet for months now and every time we go to the video store and he presents the box to me, I just give him this weary sigh and he puts it back on the shelf. I was trying to work up the spit to do it, I really was, but the other day he said, “You’re not going to ever watch another Shakespeare movie, are you?” I think it was in John Osbourne’s play “Look Back In Anger” where one character says, “Who’s your favorite writer?” and the other guy says, “Shakespeare” and the first guy says, “No one’s favorite writer is Shakespeare!

I started thinking about this because of something a midwife told me when Jackson was just a few weeks old: “The more you smile at him, the more he’ll smile back.” So I spent a couple of months trying to smile at him all the time, and it was working, I guess, until the other day when I looked at him and he gave me this totally strained, fake little smile and I thought, “Oh my god, I’ve turned him into Regis Philbin!” I realized that it’s far more important to be engaged with him (and with everyone) like a real, live human being — happy, sad, or with butter coming out of my ears — than it is to pretend everything’s jolly until the day he realizes that I’m a complete and utter nincompoop.

Old Grandad

Today would have been my grandfather’s 93d birthday. His name was Roy Alexander Marriott. He was a funny guy. He drank martinis and coffee flavored brandy. He’d get pissed off if my grandmother beat him at cards, he’d throw down his hand and shout, “Vipers! Vipers!”

His sister LaVerne is still alive, I think she’s, like, 98 years old, but their brothers Albert and Harry are dead, too. The last time I saw Harry he was living in a nursing home in Ashland, Wisconsin. His wife Ann was in fine health but the home let her move in there so she could be with Harry, who wasn’t moving around so well and was almost deaf. My dad offered to take Ann out to lunch with us, but she said no, she didn’t want to be away from Harry that long. The whole time we were visiting she had the toe of her shoe right next to his. Harry and Ann were married for more than for 70 years. They got married when they were 17 and that was that.

Sorry

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In the meantime, here is the most cheerful John Berryman poem I know.

Dream Song 27

The greens of the Ganges delta foliate.

Of heartless youth made late aware he pled:

Brownies, please come.

To Henry in his sparest times sometimes

the little people spread, & did friendly things;

then he was glad.

Pleased, at the worst, except with man, he shook

the brightest winter sun.

All the green lives

of the great delta, hours, hurt his migrant heart

in a safety of the steady ‘plane. Please, please

come.

My friends,–he has been known to mourn,–I’ll die;

live you, in the most wild, kindly, green

partly forgiving wood,

sort of forever and all those human sings

close not your better ears to, while good Spring

returns with a dance and a sigh.

New Yorkistan

According to the latest New Yorker cover, Pam and Kim live in Pashmina, Lisa and Regan live in Liberaci, Alba and Steve live in Nudniks, Jack’s Aunt Susie lives in Mooshuhadeen, Steph and Charley live in Khandibar, and my former apartment (a.k.a. “The New York Real Estate Miracle”) is in Fuhgeddabouditstan.

The Lakers won a spectacular game against the Mavericks last night (during which Jack gave me no end of shit for saying that Steve Nash is cute). Afterward, Jack gave no end of shit to Joe for being a lifelong Dodgers fan. Joe held his own without being insulting, though I’m sure he could have been.

Hey, Wait a Minute

I’m a goddamned housewife! A revelation I had while cleaning the stove ten minutes ago. Three weeks ago my life was all about typesetting and captions and health tips and spas; now it’s all about Shout! and Fantastik! and Viva and Huggies.

I went through our budget and figured out that we can live on Jack’s salary and my unemployment — not well, but we won’t starve, nor will I feel the need to sell my car. I just have to keep “looking” for work to keep my benefits coming (and there’s no threat of finding another editing job in this overfed cultural backwater).

What’s In a Name

In my town there’s a public garden named for Alice Keck Park, who I guess was some sort of philanthropist. The problem is that people think the name of the garden is Alice Keck Park — what with her last name also being the name of the thing that’s being named. So to be perfectly correct we should call it Alice Keck Park Park.

There’s a similar problem up at the rose garden in front of the mission, there’s a whole bed of roses named in honor of another garden philanthropist named Helen Thorne. What are the odds? Will I, too, end up with a little patch of grass named after me?

Coincidentally, here’s a poem on something close to the subject by W. D. Snodgrass.

These Trees Stand . . .

These trees stand very tall under the heavens.

While they stand, if I walk, all stars traverse

This steep celestial gulf their branches chart.

Though lovers stand at sixes and sevens

While civilizations come down with the curse,

Snodgrass is walking through the universe.

I can’t make any world go around your house.

But note this moon. Recall how the night nurse

Goes ward-rounds, by the mild, reflective art

Of focusing her flashlight on her blouse.

Your name’s safe conduct into love or verse;

Snodgrass is walking through the universe.

Your name’s absurd, miraculous as sperm

And as decisive. If you can’t coerce

One thing outside yourself, why you’re the poet!

What irrefrangible atoms whirl, affirm

Their destiny and form Lucinda’s skirts!

She can’t make up your mind. Soon as you know it,

Your firmament grows touchable and firm.

If all this world runs battlefield or worse,

Come, let us wipe our glasses on our shirts:

Snodgrass is walking through the universe.